Wednesday, May 27, 2009

totus desiderabilis

This one is dedicated to kids and young people at heart.

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
One of my learned friend, Haq the fatherly lawyer had posted on his blog about his teenage daughter, Khadijah's work of art. It struck me as something beautiful, innocent and pure.

Khadijah's work. OMG.

That girl got mighty talent, I tell you.
And her parents are very supportive (mind you, art things are not cheap!).

Suddenly I felt tears coming out from my eyes, and the burden of daily tension dissipates.
This is what art do to you.

That, or I was reminded of how things were when we were young.
When I was so much younger, I used to draw and paint, and write proses of poetry.
I had stack of books of this artworks, much to my Mother's dismay (bersepah) but to anyone else's amusement (I was an angry child, so I would draw/write about the person I was angry with), that ot my melancholic feeling was deemed inappropriate for a child at my age to have.
And art was a way to release all my energy.

So what happened, you might ask?
I grow up.
Out of childhood, out of the things I used to love.

And when I tried to draw again last night, its not the same anymore.
Sigh.

My husband, since arriving back in India, had relentlessly searching for easel and canvas and paint.
So much that he had been asking around online if those things are available in Udupi.
Much to my surprise really, I thought he was picking up a new hobby.
Macam la dia ada masa kan.

But he said "No, its for you. Dah lama dah tak paint, kan?"
He remembers.
How come I don't?

So there, Haq. My explanation and tell Khadijah my thanks.

No one should forget their childhood, or their inner child.

11 comments:

~salwaredzuan~ 27 May 2009 at 11:35:00 GMT+8  

ape kater ko upload pic yg ko lukis smlm?heheheh...mungkinkah aku akan ter inspire?

nahhh..art was never my thing..martial art pon tidak..artis dan gusip aku layan..lalalalala

amicus curiae 27 May 2009 at 12:10:00 GMT+8  

maksud kau ter-inspire untuk gelakkan aku?

tak worthy to be uploaded lah.gusip artis aku cuma suka gusip orang bukan melayu je (my take is malays should not be hedonistic.aku rasa terkecam)

Kema Azeman 27 May 2009 at 12:35:00 GMT+8  

i used to draw though it was nvr good but i cant draw anymore sbb it feels as if thr's nothing for me to draw, zero inspirasion.

i used to write poetries A LOT before i was 15. i stopped writing for a very long time n now i wanted to write so much but nothing that make sense (to write about) come to me.

amicus curiae 27 May 2009 at 12:52:00 GMT+8  

see...

"i used to.." repeated twice in your two paragraphs of comment.

don't let it die.

Dad of 4+1 27 May 2009 at 13:21:00 GMT+8  

Salam Af - I just realised that you are Ahmad's fren! I'm meetring him today in fact.

That's the least we can do - to support her, I mean. Your mother must have had her reasons. I for one, is stuck in what I'm doing now....(; ) ) I had no choice really. But, I do re-live what I enjoy doing in my spare time and so you should! Continue painting and writing!

Yes, you should learn how to be a child again and re-discover your self! It's cliched I know, but yes as we grow older we tend to forget the fun part of life i.e. the things you enjoy doing! Life is not all about work - that's my firm's philosophy - so tempted to join me? LOL!

I'm glad my posting had an impact on you...It's amazing what blogging can do!

amicus curiae 27 May 2009 at 13:37:00 GMT+8  

Haq, thanks for your post :)

mom was supportive, but its just died out.without a flicker pun. sigh.

khadijah and u in away reminded me what i used to enjoy/love doing the most.its like a shock eh this is dejavu.funny we forget what we used to be,when we were young we swore off boring adults not realising we are that boring adults now.haha.

truly inspired by your post, really.now at least i can pun a check back and stop for awhile.betul,life is not all about working, though i view our job as a mix of career+prefession ie you can never stop being a lawyer even when you're not working.

hehe.kalau ada vacancy? :P

how did u get to know ahmad? (we used to call him as "J".and his wife is a sister to a family friend) small world!

mr K 27 May 2009 at 15:19:00 GMT+8  

wahwahwah!! baru je smlm kita ckp pasal painting ni kan? dah cek kat ebay dah. ada jual easel tu.. i will buy it for u.. ^_^

i still keep ur drawings with me. mmg sgt berbakat. kalau abg la, lukis org lidi pun nmpk pelik hahaha.

p/s: ada org tu janji nk lukis satu utk hubby dia.. :P

amicus curiae 27 May 2009 at 15:31:00 GMT+8  

u still keep, meaning u brought them all to India (patut pun berat beg!)

banyaknya benda nak beli kat india...we'll be there for few months kan?so balik nanti kena charter satu kontena balik ye?

now i think u draw better than me, ive seen ur drawing for ur anatomy class..hahaha

mr K 27 May 2009 at 15:49:00 GMT+8  

hahaha. abg paling pandai lukis heart. because I heart U!!

tangan ni main game pandai le..(bukan sy ckp) :P

kita bwk blk 2 kontena pun takpe syg.. boleh bwk serbuk kari n sari byk2, haha. thanx to ebay india yg jual murah2.

amicus curiae 28 May 2009 at 10:59:00 GMT+8  

ye saya boleh cam (jari/tangan) orang yang main playstation terlalu lama!

scooter tu bawak balik jugak dalam kontena, boleh ke?

mr K 28 May 2009 at 19:12:00 GMT+8  

vespa tu takde geran.. terpaksa kutinggal.. isk2

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