Thursday, January 29, 2009

love letter to Sara

I will love you forever.

No words can describe, no depth of feelings can paint, the way I feel everytime I wake to find myself thinking about you.
The torment in the heart, the warm in yours.
The treacherous life and sweet death.

Did i found you much too late, dear angel?

The rain was drizzling outside. Not too much for it to melt the paint, I hope.
I had painted the grill to my home almost done, in the colours I think you would love. Sky blue. Yah had said it made our house look cartoony, as oppose to rustic mid night blue.
I tried, Sara, I tried.

To runaway from guilt. This guilt.

Remember the unknown poems I had written years ago while in Penang?
I had my back rested on Gurney Dr., towards the tomb of the heroic deads. I wrote two for you. Two of those entitled "To Sarah" and "To Sarah pt. II".
Little did I know it was meant for you. It is all yours, Sara, i swear.
God must have known how wretched I'll feel now for Him to inspire you to me then.

I am.

Have I lost you forever?
Can I borrow your spirit for me to live my life like you lived your life?
When you were diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and you smiled "I'm Special. God chose me. He loves Me". And I believe, Sara.

You fought. You lived your life happy.
Collections of dreams and smiling faces from you to the world.
And in God embrace you return.

You understood something that I am still trying to find.
But I will, someday, and till that day comes, I will carry your smile.

Sara, I don't know you much.
But I will love you forever.

Al-fatihah buat Almarhum Wan Maisara Aziz.
Visit her blog here


Wednesday, January 21, 2009

ten in bold

1.Workaholic laptop
at 4:43 am
Ye I was awake just before 4.30 am till Mr sandman comes with bulldozer with sands to bury my caffeinated eyes.

2.Inauguration of indifference
Wasn't impressed.
Congratulations anyway Mr Obama.
I wished a heli would fall off..damn monotonous, save for Anderson high pitched voice. And Beyonce. Yes.

3.Jangan jeles kawan kawan
Thank God the Firm decided to close down the Office for one week for CNY.
GONG XI FA CAI to those celebrating :D

4.Pesta karipap
Karipaps for 3 consecutive lunches. (sebab tak sempat makan proper lunch)
Borrowing Hida's phrase of unhealthy skin "pimple fiesta".

5.Miss me? Watch the stars

Pet Peeves numero uno: I hate it when people are one dimension.
Like every single thing in the world revolves around them only.
Ok then, that makes me live in another Planet where gravity is zero.
Don't bloody PULL ME BACK In.

6.Miss him? My heart beats faster.
And wrecks to pieces when I can't do anything to make it disappear.
And my heart sings sings sings.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

7. Favourite kopi-o talk

For the umpteenth I heard ppl say Najib sombong.
"Af kau tengok muka dia pon kau tau dia tak faham isu middle class working class".
Well the only Najib I know Is Mr O dan dia tidak sombong.

8. Soul sisters
My BFF applied for 3 days leave for me this February. She'll even close the gallery :)
My quack sister is off for her military training. Life's so gonna be boring without her nuisance :P
And the youngest will be bringing her troops to the house. :D
I love you sisters. :*

9. Uranium breathing
Eat your cheese, drink your milk.
I will see you down on your knees, Israel.
I will see your back against the wall.

10. What do you want from me?
As I sing you "If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares"

I wonder, if you want more than what I can give..


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Google Tag

Macam symptom kan.
Aku dah lama tak update blog sebab sangat bz di office.
Tapi bila aku buat post yg berunsurkan Tag, nampak sangat aku nak buang masa tak sabar nak tunggu pukul 6. . Oh!

Anywaaay. Here's the Tag.

a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer, take a picture from the first minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question page of results.

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday :

2. A place you'll like to travel to :
Monte Carlo

3. Your favourite place :
close. Was searching for cockpit (of a car)

4. Your favourite food(s) :
Puspa. jum berKenny lagi..

5. Your favourite pet :
almost asked it to be on hantaran gifts..haha

6. Your favourite colour combination :

7. Your favourite piece of clothing :

8. Your all time favourite song :

9. Your favourite tv show :

10. First name of your significant other/crush :
any guesses for anyone starting with K?

and then I found this: Khalis the MUMMY! mwahaaaahaha

11. The town in which you live in :

12. Your screen name or nickname :13. Your first job :
Yup. Dunkin Donut girl.

14. Your dream job :
not him, but his job.

15. Your worst fear :
16. The one thing you'd like to do before you die :
nuke Israel. Even when its not by me.

17. The first thing you'll buy if you get $10,000,000 :
its in our blood..

Now I'm tagging:
1. Encik K
2. Captain Doctor tersebut
3. Zetty (sebab tau dia balik cuti)
4. Sasha (time time I'm tagging u ait)
5. YOU!


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

the boycott tag

Got tagged by Wan Maryam.

here's what we should do. it's simple:
list down 5 of the products from the list below that you are boycotting,
and then list down 5 of the products that you will try your best to boycott,
and finally list another 5 of the products that you find it hard to boycott,
and tag 5 others.

this tag is to get everyone to read the list below carefully and identify which products affects your life and the lives of the Palestinians most! You can also compare your list with your friends and see: if they can boycott one product that you haven't been boycotting, why can't you start to boycott the product too?

5 products i'm boycotting
1. Adam Sandler movies, man.
2. Coca-cola
3. Starbucks (since time immemorial, not a big fan of capitalist coffee franchise pon)
4. Armani oh Armani
5. McDonalds

5 products i will start to boycott: (mcm redundant je dgn list before?)
1. McDonalds
2. Nestle product (banyak ooo)
3. Disney movies
4. carrefour AND tesco (gi Mydin la wei)
5. Armani range..hmm

5 products that i find hard to boycott
1. Emporio Armani, AX, Giorgio Armani sekalian (mmg feveret sgt sebenarnya)
2. Maggi (Goreng) friends know I'm a repeat offender
3. Nescafe
4. McD breakfast (the drivethru is nextdoor je tau)
5. Diet Coke.

I tag (random je eh, bukan sbb apa2 [kecuali number 1 tu mmg sengaja])
1. Mr K
2. Shu
3. Shahnon
4. Hida
5. Wani

  • AOL Time Warner Time Life magazine, CNN, ICQ
  • Apax Partners Jonny Rockets, Sunglass Hut.
  • Arsenal Football Club
  • Coca-Cola Fruitopia, Fanta, Kia Orange, Lilt, Sprite, Sunkist..
  • Caterpillar
  • Danone HP foods, Evian, Volvic, Jacob
  • Delta Galil Hema, Barbie, Carrefour, Auchan, Tchibo, Victoria's Secret, GAP, Banana Republic, Structure, J-Crew, JC Penny, Pryca, Lindex, DIM, DKNY, Ralph Lauren, Playtex, cK, Hugo Boss, M&S
  • Disney
  • Emblaze
  • Estée Lauder Aramis, Clinique, DKNY, Prescriptives, Origins, MAC, La Mer, Bobbi Brown, Tommy Hilfiger, Jane, Donna Karan, Aveda, Stila, Jo Malone, Bumble & Bumble, Kate Spade
  • Home Depot Villager's Hardware, Georgia Lighting, Apex Supply, EXPO Design Centres
  • IBM
  • Intel
  • Johnson & Johnson
  • Kimberly-Clark Kleenex, Kotex, Huggies, Andrex
  • Lewis Trust Group River Island, Isrotel hotels, Britannia Pacific
  • The Limited Inc Express stores, Lerner New York, Structure, New York & Company, Mast Industries, Intimate Brands, Victoria's Secret, Bath & Body Works, White Barn Candle Company, Henri Bendel
  • L'Oreal Giorgio Armani, Redken 5th Avenue, Lancome Paris, Vichy, Cacharel, La Roche-Posay, Garnier, Biotherm, Helena Rubinstein, Maybelline, Ralph Lauren, Carson
  • Marks & Spencer M&S, St.Michaels
  • McDonald's
  • Motorola
  • Nestle Nescafé, Perrier, Vittel, Pure Life, Carnation, Libby's, Milkmaid, Nesquik, Maggi, Buitoni, Cross & Blackwell, KitKat, Milkybar, Quality Street, Smarties, After Eight, Aero, Polo, Lion, Felix cat food, L'Oréal
  • News Corporation TV: Fox, Sky, Star, Phoenix, Granada, CNBC. UK newspapers: Standard Newspaper, News of the World, The Sun, The Times. Australian Newspapers: The Telegraph , Gold Coast Bulletin, Herald Sun, Independent, Sunday Mail. US newspapers: New York Post. Publishers: Harper Collins Ragan, Zondervan, National Geographical. Nursery World, Rawkus, NDS, Mushroom Records,, Festival Records
  • Nokia
  • Revlon New World Entertainment, Forbes
  • Sara Lee Hanes, Playtex, Champion, Leggs, Douwe Egberts, Bryan, DIM, Ambi Pur, Bali, Superior Coffee, Just My Size, Kiwi, Maison Cafe, Nur die, Pilao, Lovable, Outer Banks, Wonderbra, Sanex, Pickwick, Gossard, Body Mist, Brylcreem, Aqua Velva, Radox
  • Siemens
  • Selfridges
  • Starbucks Seattle Coffee, Pasqua, Hear Music, TazoTimberland


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

wake up to this, Muslims

Referring to my last post, what I'm posting now is exactly what I had in mind.

Extracts of speech by Hafez A.B Mohamed
Director-General, Al Baraka Bank


  • World Jewish Population. 14 million
  • Distribution:
    • 7 m in America
    • 5 m in Asia
    • 2 m in Europe
    • 100 thousand in Africa
  • World Muslim Population: 1.5 billion
  • Distribution:
    • 1 billion in Asia/Mid-East
    • 400 M in Africa
    • 44 M in Europe
    • 6 M in the Americas
Which give us something for us to ponder:
  1. Every fifth human being is a Muslim.
  2. For every single Hindu there are two Muslims
  3. For every Buddhist there are two Muslims
  4. For every Jew there are 107 Muslims
  5. Yet the 14 million Jews are more powerful than the entire 1.5 billion Muslims
Here are some of the reasons.

Movers of Current History
o Albert Einstein Jewish
o Sigmund Freud Jewish
o Karl Marx Jewish
o Paul Samuelson Jewish
o Milton Friedman Jewish

Medical Milestones
o Vaccinating Needle: Benjamin Ruben Jewish
o Polio Vaccine Jonas Salk Jewish
o Leukaemia Drug Gertrude Elion Jewish
o Hepatitis B Baruch Blumberg Jewish
o Syphilis Drug Paul Ehrlich Jewish
o Neuro muscular Elie Metchnikoff Jewish
o Endocrinology Andrew Schally Jewish
o Cognitive therapy. Aaron Beck Jewish
o Contraceptive Pill Gregory Pincus Jewish
o Understanding of Human Eye. G. Wald Jewish
o Embryology. Stanley Cohen Jewish
o Kidney Dialysis Willem Kloffcame Jewish

Nobel Prize Winners
o In the past 105 years, 14 million Jews have won 180 Nobel prizes whilst 1.5 billion Muslims have contributed only 3 Nobel winners

Inventions that changed History
o Micro- Processing Chip. Stanley Mezor Jewish
o Nuclear Chain Reactor Leo Sziland Jewish
o Optical Fibre Cable Peter Schultz Jewish
o Traffic Lights Charles Adler Jewish
o Stainless Steel Benno Strauss Jewish
o Sound Movies Isador Kisee Jewish
o Telephone Microphone Emile Berliner Jewish
o Video Tape Recorder Charles Ginsburg Jewish

Influential Global Business
o Polo Ralph Lauren Jewish
o Coca Cola Jewish
o Levi's Jeans Levi Strauss Jewish
o Sawbuck's Howard Schultz Jewish
o Google Sergey Brin Jewish
o Dell Computers Michael Dell Jewish
o Oracle Larry Ellison Jewish
o DKNY Donna Karan Jewish
o Baskin & Robbins Irv Robbins Jewish
o Dunkin Donuts Bill Rosenberg Jewish

Influential Intellectuals/Politicians
o Henry Kissinger , US Sec of State Jewish
o Richard Levin, PresidentYaleUniversity Jewish
o Alan Greenspan , US Federal Reserve Jewish
o Joseph Lieberman Jewish
o Madeleine Albright , US Sec of State Jewish
o CasperWeinberger , US Sec of Defence Jewish
o Maxim Litvinov , USSR Foreign Minister Jewish
o DavidMarshal , Singapore Chief Minister Jewish
o Isaacs Isaacs, Gov-GenAustralia Jewish
o Benjamin Disraeli, British Statesman Jewish
o Yevgeny Primakov, Russian PM Jewish
o Barry Goldwater , US Politician Jewish
o Jorge Sampaio, President Portugal Jewish
o Herb Gray, Canadian Deputy - PM Jewish
o Pierre Mendes, French PM Jewish
o Michael Howard, British Home Sec. Jewish
o Bruno Kriesky, Austrian Chancellor Jewish
o Robert Rubin , US Sec of Treasury Jewish

Global Media Influential
o Wolf Blitzer, CNN Jewish
o Barbara Walters ABC News Jewish
o EugeneMeyer , Washington Post Jewish
o Henry Grunwald, Time Magazine Jewish
o Katherine Graham , Washington Post Jewish
o Joseph Lelyeld, New York Times Jewish
o Max Frankel, New York Times Jewish

Global Philanthropists
o George Soros Jewish
o Walter Annenberg Jewish

Why are they powerful? why are Muslims powerless?
Here's another reason.

We have lost the capacity to produce knowledge.

o In the entire Muslim World (57 Muslim Countries) there are only 500 universities.
o In USA alone, 5,758 universities
o In India alone, 8,407 universities
o Not one university in the entire Islamic World features in the Top 500 Ranking Universities of the World

o Literacy in the Christian World 90%
o Literacy in the Muslim World 40%

o 15 Christian majority-countries, literacy rate 100%
o Muslim majority - countries , None

o 98% in Christian countries completed primary
o Only 50% in Muslim countries completed primary.

o 40% in Christian countries attended university
o In Muslim countries a dismal 2% attended.

o Muslim majority countries have 230 scientists per one million Muslims
o The USA has 5000 per million
o The Christian world 1000 technicians per million.
o Entire Arab World only 50 technicians per million.

o Muslim World spends on research/development 0.2% of GDP
o Christian World spends 5 % of GDP

o The Muslim World lacks the capacity to produce knowledge.

Not stopping there,
Another way of testing the degree of knowledge is the degree of diffusing knowledge.

o Pakistan 23 daily newspapers per 1000 citizens
o Singapore 460 per 1000 citizens.
o In UK book titles per million is 2000
o In Egypt book titles per million is only 17

o Muslim World is failing to diffuse knowledge

Applying Knowledge is another such test.
o Exports of high tech products from Pakistan is 0.9% of its exports.
o In Saudi Arabia is 0.2%
o Kuwait , Morocco and Algeria 0.3%
o Singapore alone is 68%

o Muslim World is failing to apply knowledge.

What do you conclude? Asif the figures are not sufficient enough to tell you something?

"Please educate yourself and your children. always promote education, don't compromise on it, don't ignore your children's slightest misguidance from education (and please, for God's Sake, don't use your personal contacts or sources to promote your children in their education; if they fail, let them and make them learn to pass; b/c if they can't do it now, they can't ever).
We are World's biggest and strongest nation, all we need is to identify and explore our ownselves. Our victory is with our knowledge, our creativity, our literacy...And nothing else."

In. your. face.
Time to wake up.


Friday, January 09, 2009

long way to run

I walk amidst the crowd, the hot sun smothering my almost-thick-skin, a product of the Malaysian courts after 2 years of Private Practice.
Had my penguin black-and-white suit, not forgetting the hijab and the Palestine-mafla around my neck.

I must be crazy to be walking like this (I’m in Kuala Lumpur, not Zurich) if not for to show my support.

This time, for Palestine.

But crazy is what indelible ideas a rational man can not grasp.
No one understood Van Gogh. Him, the crazy bloke who chopped his ear off.
And later made a genius after his death.

But we must be even crazier, if the only methods to show support to Palestine (and other war crimes) thinkable by us are:

  • a) through a Demo
  • b) boycotting products
  • c) sending memorandumsss

Don’t put me just yet. I’m not sidelining the efforts of the true believers of Freedom.

I’m still holding onto my placard “No to ZOG”, the mafla around my neck with other supporters in the Anti Zionist Demo.
I skipped everything when it involves the items in the Boycott American product list.
The only thing I don’t do is by writing memorandum (because me I’m just a small nobody? and eff-it. No one cares about Memorandums anyway~ you think they give a damn?)

But just as soon as the dust settles, no one remembers anything anymore.

People would start queing for their favourite baristas for the caffeine shots, and have their Happy Meal to cajoule their 5 year old screaming kid.
Yeah sure, admit it you can’t live without your DKNY perfumes and Nokia phones.

I applaud every single step of showing support, but there’s so much we can do.

Criminilise war.

In the longer run, people take it easy on the matters of war just because it happens to other countries. It can never happen to our country.
So why be afraid? So why fear the worse if its a trend in some region?

Simply put it, we don’t prepare ourselves for it.
We’re in the comfort zone and oh so business like.

"The unthinkable wouldn’t happen."
Oh really.
You’d think, this country is full of peace-loving ppl?
That we'll always be protected and safe?
With ISA and all, think again.

OK so maybe the battlefield is a long stretch to think about, but the idea of agression should be made unholy. Sickening. Gory. Avoidable.

And the way that this country is run, you look to our kids, and you would know the kids know zilch about the world. All you can hear is the blastening Sure Heboh and Rihanna is coming to town.

I’ve no problem with Entertainment.
But we’ll have problem once it’ll be Entertainment AND nothing else.

(and we already have! look at the Mat Rempits and you’ll soon be thinking apa ada dalam kepala hotak depa kecuali booze dan sex?)

Preparations of avoiding (another) war.
Step One does not include how to assemble home made Kalashnikovs.
But it includes: intellects.

Go around the local universities + schools and tell me apart from the academic-papered-education, if they teach anything else.
Do they teach about the Freedom Fighters.
Do they teach about collective social responsibility.
Do they teach about values.
Do they tell you about the TRUTH.
(And you know no question marks are necessary)

We can’t catch up with the pace of the world, because we don’t have enough intelligence.
Technologies are always trade-dependent.
Nak beli weapon pun kena beli second hand. (Helpless)

But thats physical assets, thats why my learned IP friends would still have their business.
What I'm talking is about the "other" asset, seems THE only person owning IT in this country is (and as claimed by) the infallible DR. M alone.
(Aku tak cakap.) But at least he's got a ticket to claim as one, kan?

We need to be respected. For our views to be accepted.
We need to stand in our OWN economy stronghold.
We need our independence.
Without that, 100 of our memorandumsss are all going down the drain.


What we need to do is we must must must must have intellectual responsible passionate nation.
And there’s no other way but to educate the next generation.
To get that, there’s no other way but to change whatever system.

And then maybe we can start thinking about defending whatever we have.
Not with this county, where the loudest shouts were heard during New year celebrations.

Long way to run.
And in this short run, we're already short of time.


Tuesday, January 06, 2009

and you choose to remain unchanged?

Still got the stomach for your American whoppers?
Still need that Starbucks fix to wake your brain up?

Wake up to this.

(you want more pics? ) to be convinced?

More than 15 million USD given by US taxpayers to Israel each day for their military use.
Thats 4 billion USD per year.

US tax payers finance for each bullet that goes into someone's baby.
And we're saying that we have no will to avoid buying their products.

At the same bloody time, you have the face to tell people you wish you can do something.
As if fighting alongside the Fedeyeens is a five minute job.
Pretentious words.
When you can't even do something to stop finance the Zionists.

Oh really.
You remain unchanged.
Wonder why God gave you a heart.


Friday, January 02, 2009


Kami adalah makcik gam, makcik reben asmatik dan makcik ekor babi.
Di bawah pengawasan Mbak (Queen Latifah) yang menguntum reben-rebennya dimana-mana.

Bersama cik Ninanya di Startbucks di awal pagi.
Menonton tv bersama Puan Nora dan kekucingan mereka.
Mengelak mulut jahat dan stress kerja di galeri seni.
Tanpa gerutu dan "I slap you if.." setiap kali ditanya adakah semua ini menyusahkan.

Makcik-makcik terhutang budi kepada Mbak superwoman.
Terutama Makcik Gam.

Yang akhirnya percaya that there's such thing as wonderful and sincere hearted people.


toi plus moi =)

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