the comeback queen

I’ve been extremely busy lately

Though I found my lunchtimes extended longer than usual, but it’s only because I think I deserve more ‘away’ time from the office. Because once I’m in the office, the physical aspect of ‘work’ dissolves and melts into my subconcious mind. Gone are the days of happy facebooking and status updating/commenting at every 2 minutes. Haha.

Even as I’m writing this, I’m somewhere in between of arbitral preliminary meeting, trying to create the look like busy (LLB) by furiously typing onto the laptop when actually I’m blogging myself away. Haha.

Last week the Boss starts to entrust me to handle new arbitration files on my own.
From A to the Z, izzle fo' the shizzle, its learning time!

I always preferred Arbitration, because I believe its the better platform for most construction matters, which the firm handles most of the time. And though I am wee bit shaken by his confidence to me, for I’m still fresh and green, but I believe I could still learn at my own pace.

Do not assume I’m being over ambitious or creating a niche market for my own, but for those who know what happened to me in the previous firm, you’ll understand why I appreciate the vast opportunity in learning curves the Boss is creating for me.

What happened there remained a bitter secret for me and few closed friends to know, but the consequence of it really ate me up. I was gobbled and eaten alive and nothing is the same anymore for me. My confidence level became zilch and there was always questions of why me ? re-surfacing every now and then, reminding how feeble I was as my own fighter.

But you know what they say; things that does not kill, only makes us stronger.

Now that I got my momentum back, working like there’s no tomorrow and recently I made my own comeback to the Legalaiders, I found myself busier though I found myself dead tired at the end of everyday, I sleep happier now.

I haven’t had the slightest thought of anyone insignificant, and I buried those who thinks I have the walk-on-me sign on my forehead.
The pain was already anesthetized, hence for me they don't exist anymore.

I only think of those who matters now.
Thank you (you know who you are).

I’ve been extremely busy lately.
And Happier.